It is true, I am not a mother. For many different reasons. I am scared of the pain, of the tears, and also and most of all, I might be afraid of being vulnerable, and not being able to satisfy a child’s needs (good education, adequate food and more), but most of all, I am afraid of being absent, or not being. But what does this mean? I wasn’t entirely sure until yesterday, when I had to go to a kindergarten for a job interview. It was a very beautiful place, clean and friendly. I am walking with the supervisor to see the installations, and she shows me one big room where the most little and delicate babies were (less than one year old). There was a woman in charge that looked extremely sweet and caring, taking care of these babies, probably from 10 to 15 babies in total. The first idea in my mind was…one mother for 10 children, and also, one mother covering 10 other absent mothers. The portrait stuck on my mind for some time. Babies growing up with their parents only at night and on the weekends. Is this adequate? Is this enough to cover a child’s needs? Or is it a society need, where babies have to adapt as soon as they get to this world? It seems that the fact of being a mother, a woman that creates life comes with sacrifices. It was your decision, then you have to adapt to society’s needs and the baby as well.

The fast paced world gets us all dizzy and confused. Mothers have to separate themselves from the fact of being mothers to be able to be recognized as an important member of society. Working and having your kids with you is not allowed. It almost seems like we have the guilt of being able to create life. Since when creating life became a silent crime? I was remembering a terrible intervention from a work colleague (Latin) that told me that working with mothers is the worst experience. they always have problems with their husbands, and the kids are always sick….sometimes men talk as if they were created on the capsules of the matrix, and they don’t come from a mother’s hard and caring work so they could get to the position where they are standing now. We cannot be mothers, we cannot be worried, and at the same time, we cannot feed children in public, breastfeeding is not adequate as well. Oh, I almost forgot, if we are too pretty, we will not be taken seriously, and if we are not that pretty, we must make sure to have a minimum standard of beauty, because women cannot be women without being beautiful. So, perhaps we can think that the most logical thing to do is create some sort of manual of honesty about how to be a woman in this world. It seems a little daunting… so.

During the same day, I was investigating for new job positions that I could apply as well (I am unemployed, and this is why I’m writing today), and I find myself with some ads for the needs of babysitters. One add said something like “I need a babysitter that pick my children from the day care and takes it home and stay with him until 9 pm”….this kid spend more time with strangers than with mom or dad. Motherhood seems to be more qualitative than quantitative….and society forces women to get out of the house to show the world that you can do it equally!!!! Without your baby!!!! Yes you can be like us, the guys!!!! But do not tempt me erotically!!! Or do not bother me with your children’s problems because I do not understand too much about that!!! Anyways…the second add said something like “I need a babysitter that comes to the house from 6 am to 9 am to wake up the kids, get them ready for school and take them to the bus station everyday” so, if this person is not having a disability or an unusual work shift….sounds as a major absence in responsibilities to take care of this children. These perceptions are not made against these mothers; is against the system, where being a mother is almost a disability, and you have to show society that you can be perfectly fine and ok without your kids. Since when life and motherhood became so meaningless? We could almost quote Taylor Swift singing “look what you made me do” in a song that represents the discontent with the situation.

Being able to create life, and being able to take care humanity at his most vulnerable point is a miracle, and it is important, and it does not make mothers useless. We lost that position we had in ancient times, when there were statues created to honor us women as life creators from the tribal point of view. But in this century, that is not necessary anymore. Society needs to find a space and a place for mothers to be mothers without feeling guilty by having the priceless gift of creating life.  Do people and their governments want to reduce abortion rates? Then the concept of motherhood must change from a weakness and negative perspective towards a more caring and valuable attribute of being a woman, a life creator. The most adequate thing is to create some sort of economic relief for mothers from their governments in the first years of life to increase that lost connection between mother-child, that is vital and important, and that powerful and successful individuals in society cannot perceive, because they were born in capsules created by a matrix, and they did not came from their own mothers. Sorry that it was a little bit of a rough material, but it is what I have so far.